the reason why??? PART 1

Assalamualaikum,,dan selamat hari raya aidiladha!!!!
semoga hari raya ini menjadi barakah untuk kita semua...Aminn!
okeylah ini untuk pengetahuan for people,,who always keep asking me...why you quit from matric,actually not. i just posponed my study for next year...ehhhh whyy???
okeylah..waktu spm...impian dan harapan fatin..memang gila2 nak masuk matrik..entah lah nak sangat..after i finished my exam...my health condition was not good...then my parent took me for medical check up but everything was good..but seriously when im was in form five,too many obstacles in our family..my father was sicked..and the worst me too..hmm just forget that..then my parent decided to go rawatan syifa(perubatan islam)..and the resulted,,when im hearing Ruqyah's surah..and i felt not comfortable...subhanallah..that time,im really depressed thinking about myself and my future...
but ALLAH knows,me..Alhamdulillah,i got flying colours result,even not straight A,but im blessed and then i was negligible to continue my study in matriculation,im so happy!ALHAMDULLILAH.
BUT....
'when you try to do your best,some dots will be sprinkled in life,
but the dots must come together to form our own stars
and shinning our  life'

yaa..the dots is obstacles
on first month my health condition was very good..but then...im always sick..i can't study too long,i can't sleep late..as you know,matriculation is fast track study so,no time to proscrastinate your work,,
but im try..sometimes i just want to cry,why i become like this..why?why?
,,but i never give up
one day,i can't stand anymore,every night something (creepy things) disturbs me..
and the worst when i wake up,,i just on my way to go out from my room,
im glad,,my roommates never know this,,
then my parent took me again to darul syifa which is in batu pahat,johor...
i skipped my class for one week,how disappointed ..im felt like i was a loser..
i just cant thinked...everyday i asked my momm
why?my life will become like this and my momm said ALLAH S.W.T love you,just only u can face it....
finally i decided,to postpone my study in matriculation...



at that time i think,if my fate will be end like this i accept..
putus harapan....
ALHAMDULILLAH i got offer letter from nilai university under felda,,and i think this is the best way for me..even im start from basements which is Diploma,its okay,
i will study in nursing..

some of my friends harsh me(for me was unrespectful,never care about my feeling,,and then consoled,through hahahaha,and changed the topic)
thank you,i know after you finish your study in matriculation,then you will continue in degree..just go...all the best
i was not good in study ,but as long as i life, i will try really hard..to achieve my dreams and make my parent proud with me
just only me can change it!!!!
they wont understand untill they experience the pain..

but i still put my worth smile on my face..

so,for those who read my blog..wish me  the best..

take care guys,
all the best on your study
put the best effort in every opportunities,that you get..
best regards from me ,fatinn